Much to my surprise, though I really shouldn't have been, there was the book. It should be said this is a book published in the 1970s so the chance of finding it wasn't that great yet there it was. In pretty great condition I might add and for only twenty-five cents. I couldn't have been happier. I just stood there for a moment a bit shocked. Then I looked at the woman next to me and just had to say something. "I just walked over here looking for this book and found it. Isn't that crazy?" She didn't say anything for a few seconds. Then she smiled and said, "It makes you wonder what would happen if we asked for bigger things in life all the time." I just stared at her in a dumbfounded kind of way. She told me to "have a nice day" and walked out the rear door of the library. I thought for a moment that I imagined her there but knew she had been real.
I didn't expect something so deep, and so seriously profound to happen at the library but it did. And it did make me stop and chew on what had happened. What if I really did ask for bigger things in life? What if what I thought myself worthy enough and important enough to ask for bigger things? I wanted this book. I strongly desired it and there it was. All I had to do was think about what I really wanted and then seek it. If I didn't find it then it wasn't there for me, not the right time. But I didn't fail. Failing would be me not seeking but it was there all the time. What a waste. What a true disappointment and failure that would be. Talk about serious regret.
I know I don't want to look back on my one life (though I do wonder if it is only just one) and regret anything. Sometimes we try things and it isn't always seen as successful. But what if by just wanting something, by listening to our need for something, and then going out and doing it we succeed. Just those actions makes us successful no matter the final outcome. That's what I want. To desire, to need, to want and then put it out there in the world and take the action to find it. The action to seek and take what's there. As my favorite author, Paulo Coelho, recently tweeted, " Go further than you planned. Ask for the moon : you will be surprised how often you get it."
And as for the book, well, it was very interesting too. I came away with a "you are who you are, embrace it, love it and then do something with it-even if it is way different than anything you have ever known".